Some big bangs... with a little background noise

Woensdag 12 mei

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 11:41:02 GMT

Op deze motor!

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 11:20:25 GMT

1. The age you will be on your next birthday:

2. A place you'd like to travel:

3. Your favorite place:

4. Your favorite object:

5. Favorite food:

6. Favorite animal:

7. Favorite color:

8. The town in which you were born:

9. The town in which you live:

10. The name of a past pet:

11. The first name of a past love:

12. Your nickname/screenname:

13. Your first name:

14. Middle name:

15. Your last name:

16. A habit of yours:

17. Your first job:

18. Your grandmother's name:

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 09:00:16 GMT

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 10:54:11 GMT

She was waiting at the station
he was getting off the train
He didn't have a ticket so he had to bum through the barriers again
Well, the ticket inspector saw him rushing through he said 'girl you don't know how much i missed you but we better run 'cos i haven't got the funds to pay this fine'
she said, 'fine'
so they ran out of the station and jumped on to a bus with two of yesterdays travel cards and two bottles of bud,
and he said 'you look well nice'
well she wearing a skirt and he thought she looked nice and yeah she didnt really care about anything else, 'cos she only wanted him to think that she looked nice and he did.
but he was looking at her all funny in the eye
she said c'mon boy tell me what your thinking now don't be shy
he said alright ill try, ill try.
all the stars in the sky and the leaves in the trees. all broken bits that make you trip up and grassy bits inbetween all the matter in the world, is how much i like you.
she said what?
he said let me try and explain again.
right birds can fly so high
or they can shit on your head
they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared, but when you look at them and you see that there beautiful thats how i feel about you. right birds can fly so high
or they can shit on your head
they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared, but when you look at them and you see that there beautiful thats how i feel about you. yeah thats how i feel about you.
she said, 'what?'
he said, 'you.'
she said, 'what are you talking about?'
he said 'you.'
right birds can fly so high
or they can shit on your head
they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared, but when you look at them and you see that there beautiful thats how i feel about you. right birds can fly so high
or they can shit on your head
they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared, but when you look at them and you see that there beautiful thats how i feel about you. yeah thats how i feel about you.
she said, 'thanks'
'i like you too'
he said, 'cool'

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 10:45:45 GMT

Perhaps it's the color of the sun cut flat
An' cov'rin' the crossroads I'm standing at,
Or maybe it's the weather or something like that,
But mama, you been on my mind.

I don't mean trouble, please don't put me down, don't get upset,
I am not pleading or saying that "I can't forget you."
I do not walk the floor bowed down and bent, but yet,
Mama, you been on my mind.

Even though my mind is hazy and my thoughts they might be narrow,
Where you been don't bother me nor bring me down in sorrow.
I don't even mind who you'll be waking with tomorrow,
But mama, you're just on my mind.

I am not askin' you to say words like "yes" or "no,"
Please understand me, I have no place I'm callin' you to go.
I'm just whispering to myself so I can pretend that I don't know,
Mama, you been on my mind.

When you wake up in the mornin' and look inside your mirror,
You know I won't be next to you, no, I won't be near.
I'd just be curious to know if you can see yourself as clear
As someone who has had you on his mind.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 15:47:07 GMT

HA..!

I passed the Middle English exam! O.o

With a 5.5 that is, but I can't tell you how relieved I am :D

This afternoon I did R/R Lit, and was surprised to see how much I remembered from the mess I tried to imprint on my brain in the past three days.

Now it's on to the next one on Friday, but not before this:

I've put my name down for a new provincial theatre project to be performed on a beach in 'De Blauwe Stad', and to be directed by my former youth theatre director; YAY!
Worked my ass off on Saturday, but was rewarded by an awesome football-afterparty and little sleep. And a bit of wicked streetdance on Sunday.
And in a while I'm finally off to my parents again, to rest for a bit and tomorrow have coffee and pie on my birthday.

Maybe they'll get up at 5 o'clock to put up decorations and sing me a song as soon as I've woke up. Which won't be till noon, at least :)

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:02:45 GMT

I thought: Job -> hard work -> regularity -> healthier lifestyle.

It turns out: Job -> nice co-workers -> late nights -> drinks -> no studying.

I'm not complaining; I'm having a great time. But I'll regret it as soon as I find out the exams aren't exactly going as planned.

Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to get up in time and study some poems and plays before I go to Winschoten for the information meeting about a new theatre project called 'OCCIS', and afterward go to back to the city for a smashing dance battle in The Palace, between several crews of the (my now very own) Underground Danceclass Company.
And Saturday means means work - means late night - means sleeping in - means little spirit for reading. Again. Hm. We'll see.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 23:15:18 GMT

Please, let me pass ME Literature in one try, I don't want to read no old and middle English texts no more, no sir.

In other news: streetdance is going really well, and my new job comes with very nice co-workers.

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 11:56:58 GMT

Just got a call from Jantje Zag Eens Pruimen Hangen: looks like I'll be doing the dishes after all. Tomorrow I'll have to show them what I've got. Too bad it's not waitressing after all, but who knows what prospects dishwashers have these days..?

I've got a tan!

Fresh starts

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 13:11:30 GMT

1. I'm moving to the Vinkenstraat in about two weeks - a house to be shared with one other girl. I'll get a nice bedroom (with windows that can actually be opened), a shared living room, a kitchen (with an actual gas stove and without a bathroom and toilet attached to it) and a balcony facing South, plus access to a nice, sunny sort of grass patio/playground for the neighborhood (barbecues!!).

2. Yesterday was GET's first rehearsal in preparation for NUTS camp and other stuff, which was nice, and I'm looking forward to attending my first improv night at Sally's this evening. Theatre is nice.

3. Next week I'm starting streetdance classes at the UDC, 2 times a week, with a friend of mine. Their crews are really very good, and I have every intention of becoming as streetwise as they are ;)

4. Yesterday I received a letter from CWI with a vacancy for dish washer in Jantje Zag Eens Pruimen Hangen (in the Plantsoen). So just now I gave them a call, but unfortunately no dish washers were needed anymore. However, the guy immediately wrote down my phone number and asked whether or not I would be interested in working as a waitress, and that I'll most likely get a call soon. Unexpected, and very nice!!

5. Hopefully, when (if.....) I get my propedeuse and manage to get a fixed job (or two), I'll be spending next year making money and living with my brother in a brand new house, and successfully audition at several acting schools... I am finally planning ahead. Somewhat :)

Now back to reading that cursed 'Pamela'.

That wasn't so bad a Pentecost weekend

Tue, 29 May 2007 10:35:15 GMT

Saw my first Star Trek movie (or anything related to Star Trek, for that matter) ever on Saturday, "First Contact", which was pretty cool. After that it was a long night out, ending in a nap on my couch from which I woke up stiff and cold at 7.15. The Sunday after I wasn't really fit to do anything, so I watched about 5 movies and ate pizza. Yesterday was cool, spent the afternoon playing football in the park with a bbq afterward, and then went on to the Pentecost party on the Grote Markt, with DJ's Erick E and Armin van Buren. It rocked!

Initially, my plan was to go to Pinkpop this year, but considering the total costs of the festival, it was a wee bit too expensive for the program that was offered. The party last night made up for so much though! It kind of reminded me of Queen's Day, those DJ's playing sets in the open air. There is so much energy at those events, it gives me sort of a natural high. This way I got a little taste of the festival ambiance after all. Whee!

Tonight I'll be following a streetdance class at the UDC. Very curious to see just how up to speed my skills are!

Long long long cool week

Sat, 19 May 2007 13:25:07 GMT

On Monday night I saw '300' in Must See, with Rinske and Jet. Must See has amazing screens which fill up the entire wall, and the financially terrible fact that the cinema attracts almost no visitors does contribute to a great movie experience. That movie is so cool!
We took two rides in the fair's 'Breakdance' and subsequently went to De Spieghel to enjoy some live jazz. Rinske spent the entire night flirting with an Indo drummer, got up the nerve to get his phone number from a friend and so it happened that we met up with this guy in Santana's. Had a nice time playing pool with 4 Indonesian, 1 Litouwer (?) and 1 Greek musician.

Tuesday was reading English texts and traveling to my parents to pick up a sleeping bag. That night I would be going to Wim Helsen's show 'Bij mij zijt ge veilig' in Geert Teis Stadskanaal. It was absolutely fantastic, Helsen is one of the most brilliant comedians I know.
After a long bus ride back to the city I went to De Kult with my companion, had a great time making up a project in which we'd act out or stage several proverbs and photograph these.

Wednesday started at 8 already, since I would be debating about unhappy British children in Proficiency II class at 10, and we didn't prepare at all as a group. It went alright, fortunately. Then I raced back home to shower and read up for Medieval English Lit. at 1, and immediately after that I sat in on a Ren&Rev Lit. class.
When school was all done for that day, I met up with a friend from Stadskanaal who had also been to Wim Helsen, we had a few drinks and a good time at Ugly Duck, after which I had to go home and pack for the evening: Youri & Debbie's birthday party in Utrecht.
Traveling by train offered little opportunity to rest, but arriving at the party at 11.30, I had regained some energy, tasted some of Debbie's delicious apple pie and had a shot of Absinth for the first time. It tastes terrible, but feels nice. The party was a success.

The morning after on Thursday was surprisingly relaxed, no hang over in sight. Albert made a great breakfast and we chilled in the sun out on the balcony. Even got a bit of a tan.
Later that afternoon I got picked up by my brother, who recently started living together in Utrecht with his girlfriend. I would be spending the night at their place. Jochem had invited me to stand up comedy night in an Utrecht cafe that night, but Jose wasn't feeling that well, so we stayed in and watched 'Delicatessen'. An easy night was probably for the best anyway, since I hadn't been getting more than 5 hours sleep a night for the past 3 nights.

After barely 8 hours of sleep I was woken up around 8 already on Friday morning. We would be going to Ikea and Jose's mother's apartment after that, to clear it out. My brother also prepared great breakfast, enough fuel to be able to cruise the city by bike, I thought. But even at 4 in the afternoon, my body still wasn't awake. It was as if all energy had been sucked out and all I could do was sigh and yawn and let everything hang.
Late in the afternoon it got somewhat better. We got some delicious Chinese take away, of which I then of course ate too much. I didn't feel like moving from the couch until about 9 o'clock, and decided to take the 10.20 train back to Groningen.

Today was my first chance to really really sleep in, and I did so gratefully. The week was long but terribly cool.
I'll be going to my brother's place (the one in Groningen) in an hour or so, since it was his birthday yesterday, and after that with my parents back to Onstwedde, to chill some more. Yay for chilling.

Now is the time...

Sat, 12 May 2007 22:32:45 GMT

... to get a cold. To get work done for school. To spend time with family. To bake delicious apple pie.

'And Then There Were None' has come to its own end, and with 'Gesmolten Hart' enjoying a break for the summer, I am now officially unemployed. Keeping the fact that there was never a fee involved out of consideration. Moreover, apart from mirudan's plans for some improv-nights (to which I am certainly looking forward!), it sucks to not be working on some kind of theatre project the entire summer. So of course the only way I'll get through these harsh times is to keep myself permanently attached to GET-members.

Anyway, so much has been going on these past weeks that it seemed ages ago since I last visited my parents, and as it just so happens to be Mother's Day tomorrow, my three brothers and my eldest brother's girlfriend are all gathered here in Onstwedde. This morning I slept until noon, and soon after that everybody arrived. For some reason I had mentioned being willing to bake an apple pie to my father the night before, so this afternoon, I did exactly that. It turned out great! No tasting it whilst still warm, unfortunately, since we would be going out for diner. Which was nice. The food tasted good, service was good and the company even better. It's nice to have the whole bunch together.
Youri and Debby have a party planned in Utrecht this Wednesday, and since my brother + girlfriend are living in Utrecht as well, I proposed a subsequent visit to their residence on Ascension Day, to do something fun and spend the night there. My brother's girlfriend is really very nice, so I'm looking forward to that. Especially since (how do I make this sound right) her mother died recently, and I hope to be able to give some kind of support and keep her mind off things. She was enthusiastic about the idea, so at least I'm not unwanted.
And next to all these social activities, I will read and read and read some more, until I'm totally up to speed with the Renaissance & Revolutions course. And Medieval English Literature. And Grammar & Translation. And Cultural Context and the Introduction to English Literature, both of which I will have to resit.

If only I could stop sneezing.

Little Apples of Orange

Wed, 02 May 2007 00:07:02 GMT

My Queen's Day and pre-Queen's Day-Sunday totally kicked ass!

Had a pre-party at Matthijs' place because he would be turning 24 at midnight, and after celebration and some drinks we went into the city, checked out Poelestraat for a second and went on to Simplon.
I love drum n bass parties, but Simplon's bigger hall (where the d&b was) was packed and sweaty and I couldn't keep up dancing for more than 5 minutes at a time. So I spent more time upstairs with techno and chilled for a bit.
Around 5.30 we left, had a drink at Santana's, went to my place, picked up a camera and some plaid and went on to the Plantsoen. The morning was extremely beautiful, with a bright, blue sky and the sun lighting up the city's roof tops and all the colourful trees.
We had breakfast and Matthijs' place again, with melon, oranges and grapefruit. I slept for about 30 minutes, and then we went back into the city, where I drank hot chocolate at the Brasserie's terrace. While the others went to check the market I went home to freshen up, but when I was heading for the market I found Matthijs, Rob and Rene were at Rob's place, so I went there. And while I watched a lot of Friends episodes the guys took a 2-hour nap, after which Rene and Matthijs left to take a shower, and Rob and I met them at the Grote Markt around five.
We then went to a room of the guys' friends in the Gelkingestraat. He wasn't himself at home, but we could use the room for chill purposes that day. Most of the time, however, we were dancing in the streets, and on a square near the Casino for a while. Had some diner at Hasret's 'round nine, and went on dancing in front of the Palace until about 11.30. Then Zuco103 was performing, and they were fantastic!
But all the dancing and the very long day were getting the best of my legs and back. With Rob and Matthijs and Irene went back to Matthijs' place, had a few drinks, Mars Ice Cream and a joint, and around 3.30 I went to bed and crashed. Best night's rest ever.
At 2 in the afternoon my brother called. I had met him in the Gelkinge the night before, only for a few minutes, and we went for a few colas on my favourite roof terrace. Rehearsals were at 6 already again, when I was nowhere near awake, but I guess we did okay. Afterward watched a movie with Thomas. Glad I did that, because it was early and I really craved some company, I don't know why.
Anyway, now it's late again. After only having eaten some cookies and an apple it was time for diner an hour ago, and I'm watching Lost in Translation. These days have messed with my bio rhythm.

But it was worth it!!!

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 12:35:26 GMT

This is a picture of the last painting I made. It was hard to get a decent impression, I guess this one's the best, but I like the original better (though I'm still not quite satisfied with that yet either, hrmpf.)

For all GUTSies: great job on The Scottish Play! You did good and were, in fact, funny ;) Break a leg tonight and tomorrow!

Oh yes, I'll kick your ass

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 09:22:22 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 10:39:28 GMT

Yaaay, nearly finished a new painting yesterday! I'd been working on it 4 hours straight, and had the idea of finishing it but by 6.30, nothing pretty came from my brush anymore, so I thought it best to call it a day. I'm pretty satisfied with the result so far, though, and the amount of work I managed to get done in 4 hours, seeing as it is a 70x90cm canvas.
The acrylic is getting less and less attractive, however. It just doesn't give a pretty effect once applied. I'd like to try oil paint sometime.

Friday night I started out with the first season of Heroes: it is waaay cool! Overall, I'm not highly sensible to addiction, except when it comes to television shows. And now I've found a new addiction. I love Heroes!

My voice is getting gradually better, though I still sound like a 'frat-girl' (yesyes, contradictio in terminis.)
Last night didn't help much, I'm afraid: went to De Spieghel and De Kar, drank, smoked and danced for a bit and had a great time. The weird thing was that everything was closing up abnormally early. Relatively early, of course: at 5.30 De Kar called it a night, and I heard even Shadrak was starting to wrap it up by that time. Later, with my head on the pillow, I heard the last Golden Arm visitors cry out "already?? It's still so early!" Ah well, I was heading home anyway. It was cool!

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 01:09:48 GMT

A weak kind of cold struck me last night, the sort which brings nothing more than a worn out voice and a cough in the morning, which will wear off during the day.
That cough struck me when waking up this morning, and it soon wore off, so I went to ballet class as usual and spent the rest of the day singing along loudly with my favourite songs.
Now I've just come home with no voice at all, and I wonder what tomorrow morning will be like. The only thing I experience at the moment is the inability to speak and the annoying sting in the back of my throat while laughing.
I fear the worst.

Hard work & accomplishments

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 23:20:08 GMT

The weekend is finally over, and the next few days will gradually get quieter. Thank God. Generally, I don't mind a fair amount of work: it tends to bring some structure into my life, and forces me to make a proper planning. With too few things on my agenda I slack off and start procrastinating. But with all rehearsals, Sunday's performance, and school on top that it got hard to set my mind to what had to be done. Moreover, with my stress-level somewhere up with the clouds, it got hard to focus on acting one moment and social stratification the next.
However, all turns out to have been worth the effort. Amuse's opening performance was a success, with plenty of faces in the audience (unfortunately not so many familiar, you guys!) All actors delivered good work, our director was much contented and all feedback was positive.
Also, I managed to finish a pretty okay first draft of my Proficiency II essay last night. A project on which I had pretty much already given up, but the peer critiques were not all that devastating after all. And just an hour ago I put together my Sociolinguistics essay, for which the critique was fairly mild as well. The latter actually had a deadline for today, 6 pm, but, one way or another, a fellow group member managed to get us a day delay on our deadline.

So, all's well that ends well, and I'll plan somewhat better next time.

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 10:57:45 GMT

Oh yes, spending time in the pub is paying off: stressss. My short-term planning system is not effective at all, I should seriously consider looking more than 3 or 4 days ahead.
This weekend, I'll have to finish three essays, and write a second draft for two of em. Oh, and a translation assignment is begging for some proper argumentation. Basically, I have... this moment, to do all that, this evening, after the final rehearsal, and maybe tomorrow morning and -evening, before and after Amuse's opening performance.

And that's the specific thing I'd like to share with you: tomorrow at 4 pm, Amuse will have their first performance of 'Gesmolten Hart.' Not in the city of Groningen, unfortunately, but Nieuweschans is ridiculously easy to reach by train. Once there, all you have to do is find 'De Oude Remise', sit down and enjoy the play. For more details go here.

For all of you interested: Sunday's date went as smooth as possible, I had an amazingly lovely time.

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:47:24 GMT

I've been going out way too much recently. Not only is it expensive, it also makes all awareness of responsibility disappear. As long as I'm living the good life there's nothing else to worry about. Err, yes there is.
This past reading week I have been doing absolutely nothing school-related. Which is amazingly stupid, I found out. Because the three essays + translation assignment + reading material have been piling up to such an extent that it has become hard to see that fair horizon called 'propedeuse.'
A lot of this stuff is group work, and guilt poking in the back of my brain kept me from slacking of so far. But once the classes stopped, my class mates vanished. This year's Easter is not so bright and yellow...

For that matter, anyway. Going out has been major fun..! Wednesday night in Knarie after closing; free drinks and coming home late. Friday night dancing in De Kar 'til the lights went on, and last night my first goa/psytrance party in Simplon!
It's not good for my wallet, or my body, or my school work, but it sure as hell is good for my disposition. Oh, and did I mention 'Rouw Siert Electra'? A wonderful experience! I guess this all was saving up for the times of seriousness and hard work to come...

On a different note (you won't believe this, I find it hard to believe myself): in about 45 minutes I'm meeting Peter for a drink.

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:16:05 GMT

I've just come home from 'Rouw Siert Electra' by Toneelgroep Amsterdam. Wow. I almost burst into tears at the end. It was all so very beautiful. And then they played 'Grace' by Jeff Buckley. Amazing. I love Halina Reijn.

rrright :P

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 10:16:55 GMT

What does your drawing say about YOU?

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 10:50:11 GMT

Last night I started out painting on canvas. I had bought it last friday, and I had made a bunch of sketches already, but it had also been a while since I last had used paint. So I tried a few things out on saturday, which worked out okay, and now I've got my first brushes on the canvas. It's working out quite nice!
This wednesday I'll be going to Minerva, lets hope they'll think something of it... And lets hope the painting'll be finished in time; I feel I still have so much work to do. All these ideas, and no time to work 'em out...

I'll post a pic from my phone as soon as I get my data cable back...

Oh, and the weekend was great! Went out on saturday, spent a great deal of time in De Kar dancing, went on in Shadrak 'til 6.30, wheee! It was a surprisingly good night, only cool people present, everybody was so nice and weird and it was just.. cool :)

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 23:04:21 GMT

This afternoon I rehearsed for 'Gesmolten Hart' in the Muziekschool in Winschoten, on a real stage. We had an open rehearsal there earlier this year, but that was pretty much crappy, almost completely without props. The run-through today was much, much better.
It is rather difficult to have to work with amateurs. Of course, I am an amateur, but all you GUTS- and GETsies will know what I mean: people unfamiliar with the rules that generally apply to making theatre. I have to say that in this case, it's actually not that bad. The fact that these people have almost no trouble interpreting their lines helps a lot. But then there's the other thing: they're semi-old people. Men and women in their forties/fifties, that is. And that makes all the difference, I noticed today.
The trouble with 'Gesmolten Hart' had constantly been its energy. In the way that that was lacking. I've never seen this as a result of older actors participating; I've often enough noticed the same problem in my own acting. The text, even though it's a twice-revised version of Albee's original script, is almost half a century old, after all, and thus not easy to work with.
With the run-through today, one of the actors (playing Mother) was absent, so our director called in one of the youth theatre students to stand in for her. I think she is about 17 years old, and I played with her in Richard III last year, in which she did a really nice job. Anyway, she is a somewhat schooled actor, who knows how to work with text. And the way she read the part gave a new sort of vibe to the play, from which we all benefited. The actress who is supposed to play the part is the only one in her fifties, maybe she's even reached sixty already. It's pains me to say that without her, we've come to have the best rehearsal ever.
Of course, this actor's absence will not have been the sole reason for things working out so good. Everybody depends on each other. My part in this play doesn't encompass much, but I do feel I was getting somewhere today. I made a suggestion which I was allowed to use, and which appeared to work out great. That, and the fact that some of my suggestions concerning directing were granted, made me feel like I was respected as an actress, and deserved that respect.

So today was good.

Oh, and tomorrow, I'll be dancing my ass off for Lucia Marthas: auditions for the Dance Academy! Wish me luck...

ARGH, I'm not feeling too well.. not up for dancing, anyway, dammit. I wasn't too serious about this audition, but it's still a shame. Well, I'll just use the audition money for creating a good portfolio then. Selections for Minerva are the 28th...